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Ripping the Band Aid


It's been almost two months since I have had the time to come here and put words down, though I have done it in my head a million times, and I don't even really have the time today (I just really have a case of the Mondays).
Life is BUSY, but that is stating the obvious if you didn't just randomly stumble across this blog. A newborn, a toddler, a career, a marriage, friends, running, neighborhood involvement...it doesn't end and I love it, really, every single day I feel so lucky to have it all, even when I can barely spell my name or apply lipstick with a straight hand (hello, today).
Let's just use this blog as a little (big) catch up and then get back to regularly scheduled programming, shall we?

Annabel is a joy. She is so sweet and snuggly and smiley and I really just cannot get enough of her. She also does one thing that Maddie didn't do, which is sleep! Like, at night, when I want to sleep. We are cosleeping with her, as we did with Maddie, so she wakes up a couple of times a night, nurses and goes back to sleep. She wakes me up just by making little grunts, kicking her feet a bit and reaching for me. No tears from anyone and no walking up and down the hall trying to get her back to sleep. I am very aware that this could, and likely will, change at any moment, which is even more reason to enjoy it.

Madeleine is one hell of a big sister. She is also one hell of a three and a half year old. She is fiercely independent, opinionated, stubborn, irrational and funny beyond belief. And oooooh how she pushes my buttons and makes me strive and pray and strive some more to find patience and zen. It is both my favorite and least favorite age all at the same time and I can go from never wanting her to get older to thanking God that she will grow out of this, all within the same car ride. It has been a great lesson for us as parents to remember how we want to parent and supporting each other to make sure we can do it. There are lots of tap outs and nights of passing out minutes after she does from the sheer exhaustion of it all and yet I just try and remind myself that it is fleeting. She will not always be like this, for both the good and the bad, so remember the good and let the bad come and go with everyone still alive.

Work is a lot. I came back into the office after just 8 weeks out but was very connected the whole time so it really didn't feel like I was away and yet there is so very much to do. All the goals and ideas I had at the time of my promotion can now grow legs and start their own lives. It is exciting, exhausting and a bit overwhelming but I am happy for the opportunity to do all that I love to do and still be able to be home well before dinnertime.

Everything else is happening and that makes it great. Marriage and friends and running and being involved in the things I care about all still exist because I have an awesome husband who helps me to make them a priority and awesome friends who meet me halfway (and usually more) to spend time together, to watch the girls and to tell me I have a good hand on this parenting two with a career and commitment to wearing make up every day.

Hello, my name is Stefanie, and I kinda sorta got this. It's good to be back, blog!



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Kerry Leitner said…
You got this!!

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